"The Price..."

Am falling so deep I want a way out....
I hate this deafening wail that keeps following me around..
I can't breathe....I choke...
There again!! Did you hear that?? Again.....another piece broke!
Come out.....You're killing me inside..
Am a wreck....this is unbearable...
Didn't know I'd have to pay a price for being true
I will now...I have to..

'Impossibilities...'

You ask me to move on and leave everything behind
To forget whatever happened and turn new inside...,That's impossible!!!
Am not doubting you...but I laugh like Sarah did
Guess she too like me looked at you and then her own inabilities...
To laugh and not cry?To forget this world and just leave??
But then.... You are the God of Impossibilities

It's easy to hide a wound deep inside?? Should be..coz it's your own secret world
The keys to which only you have a hold .....
But you're asking me now to bring it all out,to lay it out in the open,
no questions,no answers,no doubts....
A wound left bare to be worked on??A wound left for all to see??
Well but then.....You are the God of Impossibilities...

They say the war has ended,the battle has been won
The victory parade has found a new way and is marching on
Why am I being choked then from the smoke that rises up behind?
Why do I feel numbness all over?Why do tears roll down my eyes?
But you're asking me not to change at the end of this war..
Not to remember?Not to feel? not to be Guilty?
But Then again...You are the God of Impossibilities....

I guess I've had enough now and so i'll stop my questioning
What's the point after all coz theres nothing left to win..
Here's what I have to give you after all i've said above
I'm done with struggling over...these feelings,emotions,and Love
But You ask me to Go on and fill in again all that is empty..
To fill them again when I am broken?To hide their ugliness behind their false beauty?
But Then I realize....You are the God of Impossibilities.....

'Silence'

The Silence before and after the Storm continues,
Somehow the Storm does too
Conversations of this silent movie are playing in my head
But soon The Silence will silence them too
Am being Strangulated with a chord of words,
Numb and cold I let the Silence shriek....
Soon you'll gaze into my eyes and question this Silence..
and then....I'll let the Silence speak....

'Love'

A Hug,A Kiss,A Laugh,A Smile
A Touch,A Flower,A Moment,A Child
A Memory,A Picture,A Gift,A Cuddle
A Conversation,A Journey,A Bright colour,A Couple
A Walk,A Letter,A Card,A Poem
A Feeling,An Expression,An Emotion,A Freedom

Love may be this and much more for you....
For me It's...

The Pain,The Tears,The Spit,The Thorns,
The Whips,The Mockery,The Nails,The Scorn
The Lot,The Vinegar,The Gall,The Shouts,
The Hill,The Sinner,The Earthquake,The Blackout
The Betrayal,The Fall,The Cross,The End of Law,
The Grace,The Mercy,The Forgiveness,The Freedom
An Acceptance,A Saviour,A Father,An Eternal Kingdom
Unconditional,Neverchanging,Complete and Free...
Now that's what I call LOVE....That JESUS would Die just for ME!!

Waiting....for my niece....

Am waiting to hear the chuckle that will follow my laughter
Am waiting to take our special walks together
Am waiting to answer your weird little questions
Am waiting to pour out all my love and affection

Am waiting to see your toothless smile
Am waiting to sing endlessly your favourite lullaby
Am waiting to see the bright sparkle in your eyes
Am waiting to run around and chase pretty butterflies

Am waiting to get lost in your made up stories
Am waiting to learn your simple life theories
Am waiting to get lost in your little arms
Am waiting to be used as your firearm

Am waiting coz the Good Lord has asked me to
He's shaping and forming and making you
Watching me wait HE chooses to smile
Coz in HIS perfect timing..You'll be here...The most awaited child!!

'Awaaz'

Awaazo se hoon ghira hua
In main ek meri bhi hain
Jo pukarti hain tujhko Prabhu
Koi aur ab mera na hain

Is Duniya ne mujhe pehchaana nahi
Bheed main bhi hoon akela
Dard chupa kar hasta hoon
par aasoon tu dekhe mera

Koi na jaane mujhe
Bas ek tu hi hain mera
Awaaz meri ab sun le prabhu
Ye Das bus ab hain tera....

'Mary in Martha's World'

Another day and another morning breaks
Bringing with it another bundle of chores
I get up and pray,"Lord how many more?
Do days like these,do I have to endure?"
Clothes to be washed and children to be fed
Seeing off to work the husband I have wed
A home to be cleaned and beds to be made
Food to be cooked and on the table laid

"Work just doesn't seem to get over", I grumble
"I never have time for myself", I continue to mumble
Just then am surprised at what I see
It's my reflection in the mirror staring back at me
Why does it seem like someone else standing there?
We're kind of similiar but still a mismatched pair.

"What's all the confusion about?", she asks
"Don't all the other women do the same tasks?
Do you remember this sunday your promise to the Lord
To spend more time with Him and His word?
How many sundays have gone by like this
But He's still waiting ,counting days without a miss
You've created a world which is so fast
You're so caught up in work,you've lost track...Alas!"

"God knows my heart!" I cry back aloud,
"I've missed so much I have no doubt
O Lord forgive me for keeping you at bay
I should have been at your feet,listening to whatever you say
I've been a true Martha in Martha's world
Lord make me the 'Mary' who's hungry for your word
I know it's going to be tough for me, But Lord I plead
Because you said to Martha,There's only one thing you need..
Let me too choose Like Mary what is better
So that I may sit at your feet..... forever....."