Burning Bridges

I turned my back
Started the walk with no regrets
The bridge burned
I had set it on fire
Now my feet stumble
You were the only one
I had ,
Who was mine,my True Friend.
then why did I burn it all down??
Truth can be deceiving
life without u can't be worth living
I wanted no chains around me
Your embrace I did not see
Was too busy choosing the right knife
to cut my soul deep

I feel the heat
but I dont dare look back
Is this guilt setting in?
What have I done?
I'm burning the bridge of life
I'm burning my friend alive.

No!! I turn back...
I'll do whatever it takes
to rebuild this bridge of life
The only road I know
points right back to you
Who do I have besides you?

How did I ever choose to burn you?

The tears from my eyes
quench the thirst of the flames
The smoke clears and I stare away
The bridge has fallen
But a plank remains...

I run across to your open arms
The burnt bridge has become my way..

I wonder why
You still stood to see me return
You kept the plank when all the wood burnt
Was I even worth this second chance
Was I even worth another glance
I cant believe my mind
Everyone failed me
Yet you remained
I cut you deep and scarred you with burns
Your love never ceased,
It just wanted me to return

I was running to set myself free
I was burning bridges
Was burning what was left of me
Your bridge I could have never burnt
Cause I never helped build it, I never had tried
You built it...you first walked over to me
Illogical,unreal,Love personified
I wonder why
You still stood to see me return
You kept the plank when all the wood burnt..

'Stream'

"Please stop!"she cried
banging her head on the wall
"i give up..i just want a way out"
Blood flows down
it trickles..cold
why doesnt anything seem warm now?
the sun,the light,the blood?
"you knew didnt you?"
why hurt the wall now?
Why cause it to be stained with blood
Why accuse?why blame?
Some spaces can never be filled
they are meant to be void
go on let it all out
who's listening?who cares if you're hurt or not?
The wall? ha!
It feels no more
Its already has its share
nails,rods,stains and scars
damage beyond repair
"im not accusing,i dont blame"
i just wish i could change
Change!ha!
Look at you!
Blood has already trickled down
It has found its path
Its a stream now,it has stained the wall.
"Why me?" good question!
Shut up and get to work!
Clean up the mess!get rid of the stains..

I stop now....
I stopped the stream too
no blood,no mess,no stains
"Please Stop!" "help"
what is it now??!!

I cant help it...
The scar remains...

'You'

A stranger with an accustomed embrace
A warm candle with a heated flame
Flesh knit with stone
Part of me but unknown

A mistake I love to make
A risk I love to take
A regret I'll never have
A familiar stretch on an unfamiliar path

You're there you're not
You're a battle being fought
You Live I live
You forget I forgive

You are who you are
and so am I
Is it You? Is it me?
Lets give it a try

Look at me..yes!you over there
oh come on dont pretend
right there on that chair!
Strange as you are
You are real
Holding Secrets
You've learned to conceal
Come on over
Lets get Introduced
Have our thoughts diffused
You and I
Me and you
There's no difference
Between the two
Stare away....
You're my reflection
And I just named you...
...'You'

'Shaken'

I had bills to pay,
Had a girl to meet
stepped out of work
to the rush in the street
Little did i know
What was in store
Now i lie in a heap
all mangled and sore
They say a bomb exploded
and i am dead now
My girl will wait forever
what happened?how?

6pm news
thats when i heard
u alright honey?
i've been so scared
Am glad ur alive
let me ring the others too
I dont want this day
to carry any sad news

I'm seated here
they picked me off the road
I was supposed to catch a bus
but i dont know if i will anymore
Blood and dust,chaos reigns
Im still trying to guess
if its me or my remains

You called and then i knew
Whats happening? whats going on?
I wonder for a while
but soon fades the sense of alarm
Me and my world has not been struck
Those are still 'others' bodies
They are carrying in the truck

Am just glad I've made it home
My city shook with blasts
A new shape...hatred has adorned
But soon this will be
Another accident, just a memory
How easy it is
Just to be worried about 'my world'
check if its alright
while someone else's crumbles to the earth?

My world, your world..
wonder when it will be ours
Wonder when i will actually feel
The pain in 'our ' scars
wonder when i will look beyond
a colour,a face or a god
Wonder when 'fighting for world peace'
will start to sound odd..

I wonder as I get up
and get back to my feet
I missed the blast..
I wonder what did 'they' achieve?
I'm still alive
Was it not my turn yet?
I wonder as I walk home..
I wonder if 'they' will regret...

" It's September "

Its september...
Summer is slowly fading out
The season is all set for a change
It'll soon be family time for the trout

The old oak on the hilltop waits
Soon it will be his turn
As the meadows change their colours
He'll adorn his new shape

Its september
Months have passed me by
The season is ready to embrace the change
And so am I

I dont think I can compare
With the mighty oak as he waits
But I sure have started shedding my leaves
My soul is now willing to share

Its September
I'm so glad you've come
The season has brought you with it
And my heart has finally succumbed

My Pitcher, My world inside,
Is ready to come alive
You've opened up the lid,theres no stopping now
It's september after all....I no longer can hide

Its september...
Summer has faded out
The sun now shines in my eyes,
And the monsoon's finally gone
It's september
Am out of my hideout...

It's september...

'The Play'

Wish i was just part of an audience watching all this unfold
Wish it was just a character already set in a mould
But is life that simple? Can emotions be tamed?
Can i say this is what i choose to feel and it's going to remain the same??

But my stage is alive! I change i do
I sit at the edge of my chair! I laugh! I cry in solitude!
I say I dont believe in love but breathe it all the time
I say I love peace but then commit my own secret crimes

Is it just me who is confused in a world of thoughts?
Is it just me who seems to be stuck in the same plot?
Is my plot changing or am i being changed by it?
Am i feeling what i feel or is it just a way that i feel?

I struggle to understand should i take this step or should i step back
I hear different voices say "this and not that!"
But this is life isnt it?
How can it be rehearsed?
How can i already know? How can I be sure?

Right now i just sit as the stage unfolds
Its the part where love is desperately shaking my stronghold
What will I do? What will i say?
Will love find me or will my heart be thrown away?
Wish i had sheets of dialogues that I could look through
wish i could give you a sneak preview...

But Ha!! Life's not a stage and I am no actor
Am just a struggling writer who's fed up of the mystery factor
I'll wait..I'll watch like i have always done before
Who knows...??
I may be the next best seller at your favourite bookstore!!

Rango ki Pehchaan

Baarish ki Boondh si
Khilti kiran si
Lehro ki tu hain masti
Ya udthi patang si
Indradhanush ke rango ki jaan
Indradhanush si teri pehchaan
Sej pe rakh du
Nihare sab tujhe
Nahi rahe ab koi kona
Unchua tere rang se

Par rang nahi hain ab hain aasu tere
Behto jo baarish ki boondh se
Aasmaani rang ab padh gaye pheeke
Cheen liya ab ujjala kiran se
Bikhar gayi leher takra ke pathar se
Berang saji ab rango ki dukaan main

Gir jaane do baarish ko
Bheege sari dharti
Andhere pad jaane do
Ab rahegi meri roshni
Rang mera hain bus mera
Na ghulega is baarish se
Mera rang to ghula hain
Us neele aasmaan main..


The first verse is also used in the poem " Pehchaan"