'The Play'

Wish i was just part of an audience watching all this unfold
Wish it was just a character already set in a mould
But is life that simple? Can emotions be tamed?
Can i say this is what i choose to feel and it's going to remain the same??

But my stage is alive! I change i do
I sit at the edge of my chair! I laugh! I cry in solitude!
I say I dont believe in love but breathe it all the time
I say I love peace but then commit my own secret crimes

Is it just me who is confused in a world of thoughts?
Is it just me who seems to be stuck in the same plot?
Is my plot changing or am i being changed by it?
Am i feeling what i feel or is it just a way that i feel?

I struggle to understand should i take this step or should i step back
I hear different voices say "this and not that!"
But this is life isnt it?
How can it be rehearsed?
How can i already know? How can I be sure?

Right now i just sit as the stage unfolds
Its the part where love is desperately shaking my stronghold
What will I do? What will i say?
Will love find me or will my heart be thrown away?
Wish i had sheets of dialogues that I could look through
wish i could give you a sneak preview...

But Ha!! Life's not a stage and I am no actor
Am just a struggling writer who's fed up of the mystery factor
I'll wait..I'll watch like i have always done before
Who knows...??
I may be the next best seller at your favourite bookstore!!

Rango ki Pehchaan

Baarish ki Boondh si
Khilti kiran si
Lehro ki tu hain masti
Ya udthi patang si
Indradhanush ke rango ki jaan
Indradhanush si teri pehchaan
Sej pe rakh du
Nihare sab tujhe
Nahi rahe ab koi kona
Unchua tere rang se

Par rang nahi hain ab hain aasu tere
Behto jo baarish ki boondh se
Aasmaani rang ab padh gaye pheeke
Cheen liya ab ujjala kiran se
Bikhar gayi leher takra ke pathar se
Berang saji ab rango ki dukaan main

Gir jaane do baarish ko
Bheege sari dharti
Andhere pad jaane do
Ab rahegi meri roshni
Rang mera hain bus mera
Na ghulega is baarish se
Mera rang to ghula hain
Us neele aasmaan main..


The first verse is also used in the poem " Pehchaan"

'Those Eyes'

This is for all those men who watch women being eve teased,assaulted or exploited and still choose to stay quiet! I don't know what goes on in your minds when you watch....I just wish that you would someday understand what it feels like to be brought down from "being God's reflection' to Just a 'cheap fun object'!!
I hope some day you would understand....


I felt a shiver run down my spine
When those eyes happened to cross mine
Those eyes that had questions
unspoken,no words
Those eyes that questioned
My inner world

Why didnt I vanish?
Why Didn't I disappear?
Why am I so very often
Caught unaware?
Why did those eyes have to look into mine?
Why did they question
All that was on my mind?

Why am I even thinking about those eyes?
That's their plight!Whats the surprise?!
Manhood,Power,Strength and me
Thats what I want those eyes to see!!

But yet I know they travel deep
Questioning my depth and insecurities
Is that what gives you a high?
My eyes full of tears
When they could have been dry?

You could have stood up and been a real man
Who was willing to try and said I can
Thats True strength,true 'manhood' to me
That in your helplessness
you would be ready to fall with dignity.

But I stood there as I stand now
Those eyes look out and ask why?
Is it so hard to get that I am HUMAN??
Not a Desirable 'OBJECT',But a WOMAN?!

I have no answers,I cant say why
My concience pricks me
But I move on with a sigh
Maybe next time I'll do what I can
Maybe next time.....
I'll try being a MAN!!

'Pehchaan'

Baarish ki boondh si
Khilti kiran si
Lehro ki masti
Ya udthi patang si
Indradhanush ke rango ki jaan
Indradhanush si teri pehchaan
Sej pe rakh du
Nihare sab tujhe
Nahi rahe ab koi kona
Unchua tere rang se

Par rango go na main
Banaoon apni pehchaan
Shakti aur rang ka kaise karlu mel?
Vijeyta bus main hoon!
Kyunki mera hain ye khel!

Tu Baarish hi sahi
Par baadal main hoon tera
Tu Chahe khula aasmaan
Par rahega pehra mera!

Ye Pehre na ho
Tho kahaan ka main raja?
Meri khokli randneeti ko
Kaise poora kar paata?
Khokla! Dara Hua! Kamzor ! Pareshaan!
yeh hain....
Meri Mardaani pehchaan!!