'Ye Yaadein'

Aadhi adhuri baatein
Khati meethi saugatein
Man ko gudgudaati hui
Zubaan par aa jaati hain
Ye Yaadein

Hasi mazaak ke phuware
Kabhi aansuoh ke dhare
Jasbaaton se dosti nibhati hui
Zubaan par aa jaati hain
Ye Yaadein

Pal purane ya naye se
Kabhi apne kabhi paraye
Bin bulaye mehmano se muskarate hue
Zubaan par aa jaati hain
Ye Yaadein

Undheka karoon ya nazar andaaz?
Kaunsa rahega behtaar illaj?
Bewaqt pyaas ki bebasi ko lipte hue
Zubaan par aa jati hain
Ye Yaadein..

Kabhakt inhe koi tho samjhai
Yoon mujhe roz roz na dukhain
Par bolti hain ye mujhe muskrati huin
Gar hum na ho tho ateet adhura
Isliye...bin bulaye..bin khat-khataye
Zubaan par aa jaati hain
Ye Yaadein

'YOU AND I'

Not everyday do u get a gift as special as this...Thanku...My life and for now my blog seems so much brighter and new with words that come from 'her' - my Bench partner....my best friend!
Thankyou for the poem...It's beautiful and I couldnt help putting it on here! :)

From her to me

Every memory remains
as the days pass quickly by
as I look upon the past
my heart just wants to cry

We were always together
through the good times and the bad
I try to keep a smile
but I cant fight the feeling sad

Your laugh was addicting
and so was your smile
now everything's changing
and I'm stuck in denial

The person that has changed
at first I thought was you
but I realize now its me
but its not I changed, but grew

Everyone will change
and everyone will grow
but I will always forever love you
and that I hope you know

Guys got in the middle
and other factors too
I guess one thing thats changing
is that I'm now jealous of you

I miss so many things
about the way it used to be
we both have made mistakes
not "just" you or not "just" me

I miss all of the good times
like when we'd talk all night long
or when we'd belt out the lyrics
to an old barney song

when we'd fall over laughing
and we wouldn't know why
all the hugs you gave me
when all I'd do is cry

I miss your blond moments
and the things we would say
acting like stoners
day after day

I miss when we'd talk
for hours on end
but think most of all
I just miss my best friend

'Prose ya Poetry'

Kuch din pehle bola ek dost"
Arre Berns ab tum kavita ko rakho kinare
Aur likh do prose...Short story you see
Will be a good change...
Maybe help you brainstorm
And see what else you can achieve!"

Hum bhi chad gaye encouragement ke pahaad pe
Socha ab bus likh hi dalthi hoon
Ek "originaal" kahani ekdum dil se
Kora kagaaz,bhari hui kalam,shabdo se bhara sir
Par character hi na mile, na hi koi 'inspiration'
Har line ke baad koi 'filum' yaad aye
Aur apke sincerely 'suroor'ke dialogue(nightmares)raat ko jagaye!

Bahut socha, bahut samjha,bahut dimaag lagaya
Par kahani na nikal ke ayi
Hud ho gayi sarkar is prose ne tho bada rulaya!
Tho dost mere, prose ko kara humne side
Aap na dukhi ho tho likh diye ye kuch line
Koshish humari zaari rahegi, aap chinta na kare
After all who can reject an offer so "bona fide"

This is for a friend who has been after me to write prose/ short story for quite a while now...this is me saying sorry and don't give up! :)
Sorry Dost! Tried but nahi hua..so just to make up for the broken promise...me putting a poem dedicated to your "prose love and enthu" on ME Blog!! What an honour!
(Okies...modesty module to be remembered)

On a serious note..Thanku for the encouragement and push to try out new things :)
I Thank and Praise God for "kala appreciative friends" like you!!

"Kissed"

I took the little trail that led me beyond the hills
My heart racing within me as if on a treadmill
Was my dress right? Was I looking fine?
Will I make an impression?
Oh Dearie!..Hope I dont forget the lines!

I hurried along,soaking in the air
The wildflowers softly singing
as I wispered my prayers
The whistling leaves, urged me to stop and dance
To soak it all in..love, joy,this romance!

At last I was there, my favourite place
Just us and our conversations and His warm embrace
"Oh How I love you!", I cried out loud
He matched it with my echo and it rang back aloud

"You're special... princess", He whispered softly
Wonderfully made and knitted by me
"I know" ,I said and thats why I'm here
To sing you my love song,for a king so dear

And then..
He kissed me
As the mist touched my cheeks
Heaven clicked a picture
As Lightening left its streaks
I looked upto the heavens
and I felt a drop of rain
It was Him Kissing me ...Yet again

Kissed and embraced and loved
In His warmth enveloped
I looked back to say good bye
Tears gushed..He'd put a rainbow in the sky
To say How much He loved me and His promise to me
I did not complain as I felt the mist and the drop of rain
"I love you my princess", He whispered
As He Kissed me..
Yet again...

"Os ki boondh"

Phisilti ek os ki boond ki tarah
Girta hain tu bhi aaj apni zameen par
Haatheli par tik jaata agar tu
Tho Kaise pehchanta uchai ka asar?

Hairat kar deti hain humari
Khwaab bun ne ki ye aadat
Par na inhe zinda rakhen tho
Kaise mehsoos karenge uski barkat?

Jis Khwaab ko tune dua main badla
Ek faryaad teri zubaan par thi
Teri haatheli main ab os ki boond nahi
Hain khusi ke aansoon ki nami

'Dead Or Alive'

Hazard Highway
Lost control
Lights went off
And I let go

Crashed
Burnt
Survived
But was I initially
Dead or Alive?

Wrong Choices
Selfish gain
Fed the flesh
Drank on pain

Fled
Ran
Couldn't hide
I was already
Dead not Alive.

Countless milestones
Hit Deadend
Final Destination
Hopeless attempts

Tired
Worn out
Life nosedived
Now I was
Dead when alive

Fought denial
Last attempt
Lastman standing
Took me in

Forgiveness
Freedom
Grace personified
Now at last
Am Truly alive!

'He Wept'

I wonder how he would have wept
When Martha ran and cried out loud
"You've come so late,dear Lord
He's already gone!"

I wonder how He would have felt
How a God could break down
How He, the creator would weep
When a man was gone

I wonder no more for finally I know
The Cross has now revealed
Why a God would let his tears flow
Why a God would cry for me..

"The Footprint Sets "

Looking back across the tides of time
Wonder when those footprints just became mine
You had pushed me on to better days
You had helped me see through the maze
You knew where to hit when times grew tough
You knew how to appreciate when it was good enough
But then the tide grew in and the waves hit hard
And I looked back to see the footprints had fallen apart...


The waters will rise and they will fall
The sun will come out and dry everything around
There will be many more seasons of change
But never say that just one set of footprints will remain

You believe in me and so I do too
You push me to higher ground and so I flew
You chided me when I sat back and took things for granted
You dreamed maybe more than I could have ever imagined
I limited myself to just my little square
But you showed me the stories waiting beyond..out there!

The waters will rise and they will fall
The sun will come out and dry everything around
There will be many more seasons of change
But never say that just one set of footprints will remain.


In view of all the questions that I have got regarding this poem and its resemblance to the other "footprints " poem..just wanted to clarify that this has a very different theme.
This is for a friend or mentor or someone who you want to be there for you as you walk along the journey of life. Sometimes things happen and we loose friends and people on our way and its not always easy...we long and pray for them to be there..
And thats why here the footprints dont want to be just one set....They want the company that makes them a better person,a better friend and accomplish things which they alone would never imagine to do!

This is dedicated to a special friend, mentor and critic....my way of saying Thankyou...my way of saying, "once a friend..ALWAYS a friend"

'My Prayer'

I understand not
What is your plan?
I cannot comprehend
Why the twists and the bends?
I lie in bed all curled up
Not a choice , not to warm up
but I know master you're shaping me
And so peacefully I will endure.

A life without scars
Will not make me realize who You are
The peace I would question, "How?"
I experience fully now
And though sometimes I maybe unsure
With you by myside I'll peacefully endure



RM@ Thankyou for showing me where our Strength and Hope lies...even when we can't ask or express...He listens even to the silence...

'Two Hearts'

"God made Sam and looked at his heart
He said, "What a beauty from end to start!
A heart that loves me, devoted and true
A heart that'll be among the chosen few.

Then God made Margaret, A rare pearl.
A gem, a beauty and so surreal
A woman He knew who would gladly serve
A woman who would be beyond words.

With two perfect hearts made
A great idea in His mind now played
Sam and Margaret put together
Will be love standing strong in any kind of weather
So He united them and placed them as one
He smiled as they wed
coz a journey of Love had begun....!!


DEDICATED TO ONE OF MY FAVOURITE COUPLE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!

Happy 25th Wedding Anniversary! Thankyou for being such wonderful spiritual parents and friends to me!
I thank the Lord for you and the example that you are to so many..in today's world where relationships, commitments and true love seem to be going extinct, you stand as an example to prove that marriage is not about two its about 3! Christ being in the centre!
I love you and hope you have many more joyous years together!

"To Papa with Love"

'Paapajaan' is what I also call the man
Who's made me to become who I am
As a kid I felt you kneel right beside me
And I always kept that extra chair for you
When I played house in make belief

Mom said I hurt you when I lied
Made me wonder coz I could never see your eyes
The eyes she said that also shed tears
When I did stuff she feared

I never skipped church or sunday school
Coz they said I could learn about you
I sang, I Drew and tried my best at memory verse
All I wanted then was to impress you Papa-'the maker of my universe'

Days passed and your little girl grew
I found others to impress and other dreams to be pursued
I loved you Papa but I had the world waiting
Everything around just so captivating

My heart now was torn between you and a man
All my conversations with you were now about him and our plans
I've got a new cellphone Papa and I wish you had one too
Would help me make sure you heard what all I needed from you

Papa? You there?It's been a while...
I need a hug Papa...I need your warm smile
The man I loved broke my heart
And all these months I blamed you for making my world fall apart
I felt mad and angry that you didnt care
And somedays I just wanted to run back and end the nightmare

I can never make you proud Papa Like I did at sunday school
I'm sorry I've let you down and have been such a fool
I wish I could turn back time and catchup on all that we could have done together
I've missed telling you about all that's been happening..everything! even the weather!

I love you Papa and there's nothing I long for more
To be your little girl and make you proud like before
I'm a lucky girl and you're the best Daddy ever
I don't deserve you and maybe have never
But You're my only Family now and forever!

"Mayonnaise Baatein"

A friend once said,
"Get on with life
Stay healthy keep fit
Eat chicken salad
With lots of mayo in it!
Smell like strawberry cheesecake
And give 'Axe'
A competition
Make excuses, brilliant ones
Never submit to opposition!
Idhar udhar
Sab barbaad hain
Sabne pehne firstclass naqab hain
So no tension
We're all part of it
Some destroy,Some pair up
Some amuse..that's their bit!
Bore hue tho dimaag ki bati jalao
Gaane likho,guitar bajao
Log kya jaane
What do people know?
Who's the conductor?
Where's the show?
The bored head
Nonsensical chatter
But what do they know?
What's making me fatter?
Blame the mayo!
Blame everything!
Pacify yourself by justifying things.
But worry not my friend
Na tu fiqar kar!
Zindagi kaatni hain, kat jayegi
Kabhi bore
Kabhi akele
Aur kabhi Dosto ke saath reh kar!"



Randomusing : "I know you'll know"
Janaab: "Apologies or Gratitude whichever pleases...as promised the cheesecake advice" (Preferred the blog to the report) :P

"Business as Usual"

Sunny skies
Morning dew
The mirror smiles
As I dress u
Nothing strange
Nothing peculiar
It's Business as usual

"Sunny side up
No milk please"
I watch you dress
Now with ease
Nothing strange
Nothing peculiar
It's Business as usual

Nervous smiles
Heartbeat loud
Your black robe
Makes me proud
Nothing strange
Nothing peculiar
It's Business as usual

Business suits
Plans and dreams
Ambitious chatter
Eyes that gleam
Nothing Strange
Nothing peculiar
It's Business as usual

The car crash
The telephone
Someone's dead
A Painful groan
Nothing strange
Nothing peculiar
It's Business as usual

Flowers and wreaths
Dust to dust
Part of me buried
And the other will rust
Nothing strange
Nothing peculiar
It's Business as usual

Emptiness and pain
A void made
Tears roll
Loneliness stays
Why is it strange?
Why is it peculiar?
How long before...It's Business as usual...

'Heart vs me'

"My heart feels ripped apart
it wishes to die down and never
beat again
It rises and falls
like the emotions and the tears
it wishes..it pleads...
to never love again

It pushes me away
It makes me want to go numb
to not feel the grace
I had believed in once
It cries and it weeps
and it slowly chooses to believe
That memories are weak
And people soon leave

I want you to embrace me
And hold this heart close
Before it breaks
Or just turns stone cold
I want to run up that hill
And feel the first drops
of rain
I want this heart to be revived
And get soaked in the rain
In the rain....
Of Grace again.

For you alone can sew through
This cut in my heart
You alone can take the pain
And turn it into a shout
You alone can converse
And make this stubborn heart believe
That though memories fade
And people leave
I still need a heart
To experience and share
'Your' love...
That will never cease..

'Ka Batayein Mausi'

Ab ka batayein Mausi

"Will you speak or may I?"

Arre bolet rahin sasuri
Zarra mike ki tho awaaz badayein!

"Gao main hamar
aye hain sarkar.
ka parade lagi hain!
laga hain pandaal
Bhaashan hone wala hain shuru
zara dekhein tho
kauno hero bhi aa raha hain... bola guru
Acting tho sahib ab dekhenge
Neta sheta sab jum ke karenge

Boli meeti,uff! woh waade
Naare baazi main
Hum bhi kho jawe
Par Sarkar badal do
Ya Sapne dikha do
Sach kahith hain lalli
Na badle hain hum
aur na badle hain woh!

Hum tho chale roti banane
Aate honge lalli ke Bapu
Sarkar badle tho badle
Hum tho dharen rahenge hamar duniya main
Jo na badle...Sarkar badalne se!

'The Plunge'

What if I had never let go
What if I had held on
What if I had let fear rule
What if I had waited for another dawn

What if I had turned my back
What if I had remained afraid
What if I had heard that voice
What if I had just stayed

BUT

The 'what if' disappeared
and I took the plunge
My heart racing
and my whole body numb
Split second decision
and sweet victory was mine
What was I thinking??
I dont think I can define!

What if?
Now I know
That you never really achieve
Till you let something go
Faith leads and you follow
The gulp of fear
You swallow

I stood on that cliff
You maybe standing on one too
Just take that plunge
Surrender anew
The God who made that cliff
Created the water below it too!!


(11-04-2009- Shivpuri)

'Stones'

I'm drained out
fully exhausted
the only sound
that rings
is the roar
of a laughter
A laughter
that drains out
the still small voice
I hurl a stone
and then another
A shout now accompanies
the laughter
"Hurting people
throw stones"
Go on throw
one more!
Does it matter?
Must I go through this?
Days like years?
Conversations
replaying in my ears?

He stands there
laughing....
having the last laugh
How many times
will I falter?
How many times
will I sacrifice?
How many more
hurting words
will I hurl across
Will it be me
always
paying the price?


I hear you
I understand
You're hurt
You're angry and mad
You condemn yourself
and you blame
you pick up a stone
to throw again
I see you
I see David
crying for his
captured wives
the other men
ready with stones
ready to strike
everyone bitter
everyone sour
and David maybe
too listening to
a similar roar

The laughter
must have been loud
Distressing like yours
his pain,
of loss
of losing someone dear
the same
But he found
his strength
in ME
he drained out that
laughter
he made it fade away
he stood again
to face stones
if they should appear

I am here
I'll take that stone
I know your loss
I know your heart
I'm here and so
My still small voice
will drain
that laughter out
I am your
strength
I am your rock
You dont need
stones anymore
Your ears will
hear just me
and the devil
will laugh nomore


This is inspired from the life of a man called David.A man I love and can so relate to.For all those who follow this blog...well no he's not my husband or boyfriend or brother..no! He's not my pastor or father..He is a very special person in the Bible..( if you are running out of books or my blog boring you..get a Bible (the complete,not just the new testament) and read through the books of 1 samuel and onwards...i bet it'll keep you up!
This above is from 1 samuel chapter 30..."He found his strength in God"...

'I Laugh...I Cry'

You Wept
as they stood there watching
You shared their pain
even though
you were going to raise him up again
Wonder how you would have wept
Was it a steady stream
or was it a trickle
Did you wipe your tears as you cried
or did you just let them be

Don't know how
But am sure you feel the same pain
It doesn't matter if mine roll
or if they trickle
You wept
and you do it with me again

Wish I'd seen you laugh
or just your radiant smile
Did your laughter have the roar
or was it 'turn-the-face-red' kinds
I bet you cracked jokes
and made those disciples laugh
Did your eyes close? Did you chuckle?
Or was it both of them combined?

Don't know how
But am sure you feel the same joy
Doesnt matter if I chuckle
or if my eyes close
You share my joy
and so I laugh....because I know!

'The Coffee Shop'

I went by to the coffee shop today
Don't drink coffee but still chose to stay
Sat down at my favourite place by the green window pane
The sun rays danced as they fell on my hands
The glass between us,like a jealous lover awaiting his chance
The flower on the table,fresh and beautiful
Made me wonder for a minute,Did God ever get confused?

I sat there lost in myself wondering about the empty chair
I could do with some company,Strike up a conversation maybe
Hmmm.. but what would we talk about?
Life and its monotony??
Naa...Too depressing...usual routine
Travel? relationships?society?
Bet once we start, we'll have a variety
Its amazing how we would switch
one to the other
Leaving some and stretching others furthur
Gasps,sighs,laughter,tears
Emotions showing up like enthusiastic volunteers
Maybe for a while we'll let silence set in
Contemplate,retrospect,do some soul searchin
Enjoy the silence, enjoy not having to speak
Just listen to the jukebox play Jimmy Hendrix
Well we could go on,you and I
Conversations are never hard if we try

But I better be off, the sun has almost set
I surely need to work on time management
Yet am glad I stopped by the coffee shop today
Didn't drink coffee but chose to stay



RandoMusing!This is for thee! Thanks for the 'Blog-o-Honour' :P (oblivion)

'Case Adjourned'

You sit on the bench
Staring into space
wondering if it will
ever fall into place
The world shrinking
with every breath
People fading
and brightening again

What will it take
What more
For you to want me
What's the new price
Guess blood did not suffice

You wonder and You sound alarmed
Feel empty but put up a fight
Too much love
that could'nt be
You'd rather stare into space
and live in make belief

What will it take
what more
For you to Know
I love you
Real...not make belief

You stare into the coffee cup
It's a whirlwind in there too
You look at the sky
not the sun
you're awaiting a deluge
It'll help you hide away
But you cant escape the truth

What will it take
What more
For you to return
Rest your case now
Don't...
Don't let it be adjourned.

Oblivion

Each passing day
Shift I back and forth
'normalcy' to the absurd
Questions to the answers
Crowd to the alone

Details,do i care?
Yes..should I?
But no audience
No judgement,no applause,
No scope for repair

Pretence,the facade
Illusions,make belief
Cease for a moment
Breathe! Breathe!
Here..Put this on
Fits with the speech

Torpid,Decaying
Slowly fading
Yet....
The charm remains
I'm 'known' by you
You 'Know' me

Oblivion
Do i care?

I Bid thee...
'unknown'
I Bid thee farewell!

Daisy

They'll give you ideas
to make me happy
They'll tell you
what would make me sad
They'll say gift her a diamond
and that will make her glad
her eyes will twinkle
as they sparkle in her hand
You wouldn't need words to explain
she would understand

Dont listen to them
They wouldn't know my heart
Diamonds maybe a girls best friend
But I am a class apart
You wouldn't need diamonds
How precious they maybe
A Daisy is all I ask for
as pretty as pretty can be

A Diamond may sparkle
A twinkle it may bring
But after all its a rock
with nothing within
A diasy may not be tough
It may wither in a day or two
But its fragrance will fill my heart
and remind me of you.

Not the whole world
But a daisy would do
A poem would be good
But a daisy would do
Diamonds would sparkle
But I would gladly trade
coz in the end not they
but your love in a daisy
on my grave will be laid

'Drifting '

Drifting in the wind
I fall to the ground
Im picked by the wind
and again I take off
Up and Down
Turning inside and out
High and Low
Up and down
Here and there
Wat a life u must say...

Wat a life?
Oh how true.
sad that
I just bid it adieu
A broken leaf
I wander around
Till u fail to recognize me
Till the wind dies down